• Am I sociable?
    Reflection

    Am I sociable?

    Am I a sociable person or not? I am not sure about myself. There seems to be two sides of me. I am a nervous wreck in certain social circles. Some examples are meeting relatives of in-laws or friends of friends during special occasions like weddings and jubilee celebrations. I end up speaking incomplete sentences and making a fool of myself. I just want to stay locked in my room and not meet people. I was a steward in the church and sucked at it. Forget about finding seats for people, it was an achievement to find my own seat. Some people are just born to be stewards. With a…

  • Reflection

    One moment away

    No matter where we are or how we live, we all are always just one moment away from walking over the edge We drove past an ambulance, then a deserted accident site where we saw the damaged vehicle. It didn’t feel personal until I heard that the person who died in the accident was the father of a young man who lives in a flat in the same house as us. Moments earlier, there was a photo of the accident circulated in social media, then a query in another group for confirmation of news of the accident. It came together later that we passed by the spot where a parent…

  • Reflection

    ‘Dr.’ on sale

    The craze for ‘Dr.’ is a result of the social status and prestige that is associated with the title….A name prefix does not truly qualify a person. Ultimately, respect has to be earned by the quality of one’s work What I’m about to say will make some people unhappy. But it is something which needs to be said. It is nothing new but those who are aware are not very vocal about it. If I say that what I am about to say is nothing personal, I’d be partially lying. I speak from the view point of highlighting a general pattern, but specific encounters influence the viewpoint I hold. I…

  • Creative Nonfiction,  Reflection

    The future of music

    The type of music which people want to hear can be manufactured with the right mathematical algorithms Music will not fade. Music stars will live on. But musicians will wither away. That is the future of music for you my friend. Let me explain. Music will go on. People will continue to have their fix of the all familiar tune and lyrics. Marketability of the music will determine the production (not composition) and therefore, there won’t be much wandering from the known path. If need be, shit talking in between the songs may remain for a while. The themes will be the recognizable ones, like ‘occurrences of the previous night’,…

  • Reflection

    The anguish of not being able to speak well

    People mistakenly invite me to speak when they come to find that I write. But I don’t remember a single occasion when I spoke well. I do have those moments when I thought I did well. But when I ask for honest reviews, I have not had a ‘great’ review till date. At best, they say the content was good. The height of my problem was exemplified yesterday when I read Bible during Sunday morning worship service. I thought I did a decent job and people told me after service that I read well. What is there in reading a text? But later when I asked my wife how it…

  • Reflection

    Consumed by the immediate

    Life is simple. But it is also not. The immediate concerns of the day consume me. But if there is any moment when I can get out of my own body and observe myself from a distance, I am confused. Should I continue like this, or make a clean break and live differently henceforth? Life has no ‘Rewind’ but routine is hard to change. I can idealize a better life to live but I am stuck with the present one. Is it so bad to need change? If given another chance to relive a day, for example, how I lived yesterday the 26th of August 2018, can I do better?…

  • Reflection

    Life Review

    Life review can allow mid-course corrections to the long term goals that we have. Just as we have movie review and departmental review meetings, it is good to review life periodically. How often? I think at least half-yearly. If we simply drift, it is not hard to lose our way. Take for example, materialism. Unless we pause and think about the greater purpose of life, it is easy to become materialistic because that is where gravity of life pulls. We think about making money, lots of money. We think about needs and wants we have and try to justify pursuing to meet all such needs and wants. We compare our…

  • Reflection

    All blames are not equal

    We are all to be blamed (for Corruption in Nagaland). But are we equally to be blamed? Generalization of the blame is the game that people in power play to keep things as they are. Even before any work is executed, minister of a department cuts a certain percentage of the department fund. Not satisfied with the slice that he cut out at source, he interferes and paralyses the department activities. He takes the lion’s share of the appointments by placing people who are not fit for the job. He inserts people where there are no vacancies making the government spend excess on salaries. He then takes the lion’s share…

  • Reflection

    Neymarish

    Tharoor was wrong. But are we also not ‘Neymarish’? Burning effigy for a reference to headgear? Come on. CM and Naga Hoho have said it. Let it rest there. Are we people who are most easily offended? One wrong touch and we roll on the floor like Neymar. Our identity is such a touchy subject that one small wrong comment on it and we go crazy. We are aware of the history but we don’t have to bring it all up each and every single time. For instance, although discrimination of people from the region is real, I don’t have to be offended each time I am mistaken for a…

  • Reflection

    AFC

    Animal fight club Battle of the beasts World’s deadliest killers Monster fish Deadly jaws Wild encounters Animals gone wild Killer dragons Fast and fierce What are these? Yes, they are television programs. Scroll the TV schedule through your remote control to see how repeatedly these are shown in a day and the number of hours they take. Contrast that with Psalm 104 of the Bible. Do these television channels always have these kinds of programs in the past? I don’t think so. It must be viewers who are influencing the channels to show these programs. So, what does this say about us humans? Our minds have become perverted. These programs…